Ryn’s Blog

星期日，我和朋友们去了教堂~（一定要去的）。在赞美时光，他们唱了英文版的“圣哉圣哉”。其实这首歌平常没有什么特别感触，可是唱着唱着，眼泪就掉下来了。因为在家乡，我们都有唱这首歌（虽然是华语版的）。所以我就想起妈妈每次和我去教堂的时光。其实平常一想到她就想哭的感觉，只是都把眼泪往肚里吞。真的好想回家，可是不能。。。哭好，人真的轻松很多，可能憋了太久吧。。。不过朋友还以为我的隐性眼镜的关系眼睛红肿。=="

很常时候，我们都是带着面具做人。无论开心不开心，都要装着没事。就算被人冷冷的刺一刀，也要装得不会痛。。。这就是人的丑陋，自私，最脆弱的一面。

有时好想跟人倾诉，可是我不想麻烦他人。因为我觉得每个人都有自己的烦恼了，他们不会再想听你的抱怨，因为他们觉得他们自己比你更惨，而你的事只不过是芝麻绿豆。。。还是因为我遇到的人都是这样？

最近发觉有些人比我更悲观。如果我也跟悲观，我看大家就要闹集体自杀了~哈。。。冷。。。只好把自己装的没事，很开心的享受生活。曾经有一位女同学说我好像很轻松没有压力。其实微笑的背后不知藏了多少的眼泪。。。

有时好想跟妈妈诉苦，可是不想让妈妈担心。好想跟妈妈说，妈妈我爱你，我不会辜负你的期望。。。

在过去的旅程里，遇到了许多风浪。这人生海洋里，还真让我学习不少。虽然在旅途上遇到了许多荆棘，有你们的陪伴我再站起来了。

路途中，也见到许多人跌倒。。。有些跌得不轻，有些跌得再也爬不起来。我想扶起他们，可是。。。也许能让他们重新振作起来是自己吧！！！

也许我真得不能体会他们所遇到的难处，因为我不是他们。因我遇到得事是更复杂，是跟我脱不离，永不改变的事实。曾经为它哭上好几个夜晚。。。不敢说，因为是一种耻辱。

人生就是这样吗？身心痛苦然后死掉。。。然后被遗忘。。。如果是这样的话，我不要！！！我要我的人生丰富起来，就算有无可避免的痛苦的回忆，我也要将快乐盖过痛苦。

努力，因为想证明不会因为这点事而被击败。话说每个人都是世上的客旅，在这世上享受造物者所创造的酸甜苦辣。这酸甜苦辣要丰富人们的生命，学习，成长。。。

毕业了，并不代表我的旅程结束了。。。而是我的将来旅程更加艰辛。现在只是靠在港口停泊一会儿。在过去日子里，对不起我所伤的人，加油我的朋友。

The new semester has begun, and i think i leave my post deserted for a long time…

Many things hav happened and i dunno which should start. But i thank God for bringing me all the way through hr

I think i did not quite so bad for my last semester. ^o^V So i challege myself to take 3 subject at a time in short semester. Althought quite stress, but i believe the one upthere will help me carry this through~

Before the holiday, my best friend has accidentally kick an aluminium bar when we return to hostel. It’s horrible that her flesh was like…ripped off!!! Luckily our friends is still around and quickly send us to the hospital. At the end, i hav to accompany her sleep over in the hospital.

Sometime, one cannot predict what will happen to him or her. Like us, it’s such a happy and unforgetable moment going out to hav a dinner wif a bunch of friends but end up tragedy.

i’m quite pity wif my friend who injured, but i dunno wat to do for her. I think her feeling was quite bad and blaming herself for ruin the happy momnet … But i wanna tell her that, we are friends and we will share all the moments, no matter it is good or bad.

Tring 2 update my blog…and someone is trying 2 peeping my blog…>,< Haha, and i shoo her away~

This week is a horrible week. Test, test and test… endless test… i wish that i’m a computer and can insert many thgs in my brain. Haha, of course it’s not possible.

Everytime i having test, i’ll kinda stress and keep on looking biscuit to chew… Is a way of mine of letting out my feelings of stress… So, i may be gain weight during exam. Horrible izzit?

Final exam is coming soon…i think  i’ll stick to the coffee and biscuit. I wonder how much i’ll gain from this final exam…(sigh…)

Finally!!! I can go home~TvT(gan dong) I dunno how long i have not go home and it’s just like prisons staying in de hostel…(so cham) Everday eat same old food, do same old things…

I went back on Good Friday. Once i hav finish my class, i immediate went back to hostel to get my staff.(and other ppl things too…so heavy…) When i get to the bus station, i also realized tat the bus fee has risen from Rm25 to Rm30. OMG~ so expensive…TvT

I’m on the bus on 11pm and reach Btu at 2 smthg. Once i get back home, the first things i do, is eating…haha. i didn’t take neither my breakfast and my lunch, so i’m so hungry…

It’s great to be home. Besides tat i hav many delicious food to eat and pc & tv waiting me to enjoy, home, also let me feel warm warm~ I also can meet my old best best friends at church =^_^=

I think if i further my study at further place, i think i won’t hav the chance to go back home liao~ I think i’m very lucky tat i still can get back home tat often. So i precious the moment at home.

So, everyone out thr, althought outside got many fancy and interesting thgs, but dun forget to return home o~Home is the warmest place in earth…^^

To me, Blog is like a diary, a place to express our feelings, daily life and thinking.

Actually i’m dun write diary although i hav tat kind of intention to do so (once upon a time, haha~) In conclusion, i think my blog won’t be up 2 date from now and ever…=_="

But my purpose i create my blog is to write down things and event tat r worth 2 remember

I hope i can let tis blog fill with worthful memory and wish me luck!!!